

reactionary"I called the number." "Oh?" "I called the number on the card that woman gave me." "Oh, yeah. What was that about?" "I don't think it was a joke. The phone rang for a very long time but then someone answered. The voice sounded like an old woman. I asked her if Jenn was there and she said that they told her I was ready but she didn't think I was ready and she told me that it would be too dangerous to involve me before they've come to an agreement. She apologized and told me I would be contacted." "The fuck does that mean?" "That's what I asked her, but she just told me to wait a little while longer and hungreactionary


messianic"I feel like shit. Don't you get it? I'm not going to be able to face them again. After a lie like that, they'll stone me. They all hate me. I'm so fucking worried. I mean, I really fucked this up. You don't understand." "What happened?" "I slept with that girl from last night. I mean, I knew I shouldn't have. She doesn't know that it's happened yet, you know, but she'll find out. I mean, I'll tell her. I can't believe I did this. I told her I wouldn't. I told her I could stop. What's wrong with me?" "Nothing's wrong with you, calm down. It's okay. Stop worrying." "No, you don't get it. This is the end man, this is it.messianic